for the last six month or so i have attended some local munches and sloshes and such and really enjoyed myself, even though at times they were scary. I have made some friends so did not think anything of it when i was invited to a birthday party to a local submissive. Everything seemed innocent enough until the Dom of the submissive who's birthday it was .. pulled her over a table and fastened her to it. Yes yes I know she liked it, but what totally took me off guard and freaked me out, the Dom handed me a paddle and told me to start paddling her for her birthday.
I do not know what happened.. i simply freaked out and ran out of the house into my car and went home. I'm stupid i know, but i could simply not see myself hitting another human being, even knowing that she wanted and liked it. Now of course i have the dilemma on how will i ever face this group in a munch again?