So, I have a question and slap me if I start complaining about my life but where I am and the schedule I lead I have a hard enough time finding a normal person for a relationship let alone someone to slap me around make me bleed and just be plain mean. I met this girl through a mutual friend and we both like each other or at least find the other attractive but I find myself shaking my head at the idea because I see it as some what of A a waste of my time going after someone vanilla and B a lie going into a relationship and not completely reveling what I want to her. So I'll leave up to you people who I habitually check in with for a month and then disappear for another should I try it just for the relationship aspect even though I'm almost 100 % sure she is vanilla? Am I asking a stupid question because I question every move I make? Would this all be better if I just kept it to myself?