Techno Faye says techno: "Hey!"

[Faye Kname]

Hi, I'm Faye. I have degrees in astronomy and computer science but just drift through life doing graphic art because everyone in the corporate world is either evil or (mainly) stupid, even at the nuclear engineering company which was my last job.

I have autism which means I don't understand why people get mad when all I do is be honest. I also don't understand why everybody else treats each other so mean and why they tell lies virtually continuously, like they can't control it. Also, I don't understand normal peoples' jokes and they never understand mine.

Actually, autism is a special kind of "retarded", where you're really smart in one or two things, smarter than almost anybody, but except for that you're an ordinary retarded person. What I'm smart at is language and complexity.

I designed the neutron monitor (and won an award for it), and did the interface for a gamma ray spectrometer, but when I talked about something shameful and embarrassing I did one weekend* that I thought was sexy and cool but was apparently "inappropriate", peoples' reaction freaked me out, so I just walked out and never went back.

I hope I never have to talk to another damn human face to face ever again. My mom and stepdad died (not at the same time). Yes it made me sad, especially my mom. Ultimately I inherited both the insurances, so I can just not fight everyone (like at a job), at least for lots of years. I don't spend hardly any money.

My monitor is next to my bed, and I lie in here naked ALL day and night, and just learn stuff on the internet and masturbate, mainly looking french and german girl-torture movies pretending it it's me in them, and remembering what was done to me in 2002. I also edit wikipedia a lot (username fayekane), but it turns out that lots of people there are fucked up too. They do article vandalism and stuff.

I like to talk on technical forums, but usually I get told to shut up or get thrown out for saying something wrong even when I'm not talking about sex but things like moving disk partitions and overclocking my nVidia 7800, but I eventually say something wrong anyway, like at majorgeeks, where I criticized the management.

I am HORRIBLY shy (at least I think that's how to describe it. I don't FEEL like I'm shy). I live by myself with little Mister Kitty, and that's all I want. Being around people, especially crowds, is very, very confusing and upsetting for me, even if I'm just standing there against the wall.

The idea that two people of different sexes could be naked in a room, alone, is amazing and fascinating and strange and frightening all at the same time. How could they look at each other? How could they talk? God, I can't even talk to the cashier at the store!

Yet paradoxically, I liked being (consensually) gang raped by strangers that weekend in 2002 because they WERE strangers, and I didn't have to say anything, and since I did whatever they told me to, there wasn't any possibility I could do anything wrong.

*Complete story is at: http://www.bdsmlibrary.com/stories/w...p?storyid=5213

It will be the only submission (so to speak) that I make here because I just wanted to tell what happened to me then because despite what all the people at work thought, I think what I did (or allowed to be done) was sexy and cool and wonderful and fun, and I guess I just wanted to hear other people say it.

I'm not going to write another one because who wants to write a whole long fiction story like for a magazine but then not get paid for it?

I did write a whole article for wikipedia though, and I am working on an article for Sky and Telescope.

Anyway, nice to meet you all.

=faye

[Ozme52]

Faye

I think you might find people you can gab with here...

[Curious_1]

Hello and Welcome Faye!

Enjoy the forums! There is plenty to read about and have fun in the games section.

Curi

[cariad]

I truly fascinating introduction to yourself Faye. Welcome to forums and I hope you will find yourself at home here.

One of the few rules we have here is that you must not 'flame' people, e.g. tell them that they are stupid, even if you think they are. Flaming people gets the mods upset, and gets your posts deleted, so best not to do it. If you do want to say something critical of someone it might be wise to run it past one of mods (their names appear in blue writing) or one of the admins (names in red writing) before you post. It is always better to be safe than sorry, and as you have discovered people are often illogical. What is of course always acceptable is to give a different opinion. This would be a very boring place if we all thought the same way.

I have had a look at some of your home page and am looking forward to getting to know you better.

cariad

[Guest 91108]

Hello Faye Kname.
I missed this post some how.
Looking forward to seeing your unique perspective on some things.
Enjoy the forums.

[MrDom]

Hi faye Welcome to the boards Hope you stay a hwile and get too know everyone here. Also hope you can feel at home and open lots of threads here and chat about anything else.


MrDom

[moptop]

Hi, Faye. What a fascinating person you sound to be! Good at language and complexity, hey? Oh, I think you will find a few souls for some mental intercourse here. It is a friendly and open minded place.

[gagged_Louise]

Hi Faye, warm welcome to the forum and I'd like to say I read some of your stories in the library page too, and liked them a lot, particularly the one about the girl who had signed up for a "sex slave weekend", and was strictly gagged the first thing when she knocked the door to prevent her from using any safewords or checks. Loved that concept! *points at her own name* I think we'll be friends in not too long.

[Flaming_Redhead]

What an interesting introduction! I share some of your feelings about people (most of them, actually).

*scratches head and tries to remember the last time the mods were upset* I didn't do it. Nobody saw me do it. They can't prove anything!

[Tasker]

Hi Faye. Welcome to the forums

[elyse]

welcome to the forums, Faye!

~elyse

[TomOfSweden]

You sound wonderful Faye. Best presentation ever. Honest and upfront. Just like I like it. Take care and welcome.

[TheDeSade]

Welcome!~ Great INtro!