Been there jtkarate01.

Chronic depression can be a medical condition indicating medication for permanent relief.

I find joy in my relationship with Jesus Christ which is not incompatable with the pervese hobby of BDSM. Read Matthew chapter 5 to become familiar with basic Christianity. It records the start of Jesus' ministry of teaching.

lee.





Quote Originally Posted by jtkarate01 View Post
Hey BD,

This is my first real post, but i feel it's an important topic. I have always been an introverted person. I've had one or two close friends and not been a fan of meeting new people. That part comes from growing up in a small rich suburb of Boston, and not being rich or a jock. (i was overweight as a kid). Summer after senior year i discovered pot with my best friend, and life became fantastic. It let me interact and meet new people. I met so many people b/c i smoked.

I left for college and met many people there too. I was in college for almost 2 years before my introverted-ness came back big time. I became convinced that the friends i had at college went actually my friends and didn't care about me.

I left college moved home and became invovled in heavier drugs, the people i hung out with were the 'dark and depressed' crowd. I started using e, shrooms, acid, and lots of prescrips. It took a while but i realized that I was using these drugs to escape reality and my depression.

I must also say that i had a grilfriend, on and off, through this whole time who totally fucked with my head. We would get into a fight over something dumb and break up, and few days later we would get back together. Deffinitly not a healthy relationship. I was also living a double life, my drug life and my 'normal life', which the girl was part of.

So i realized i was depressed, and self medicating w/ drugs so i quit them and then lost my friends, and the girl dumped me and left Boston for college in LA. It was all to much and i decided there was nothing left for me. the only reason i didn't kill myself is that my girl's best friend actually talked me out of suicide.

I went into therapy (i decided no drugs, i wanted to become happy myself) and moved to LA (that was seperate from the girl moving here) Starting over in Cali made the BIG difference. I was able to start college and reinvent myself. I am happy, and have amazing friends.

So this story is really the idea that no matter how bad things get, there is always the ability to make it better. I suggest a psychologist (a talking doctor, no drugs). Decide on what you want to change, and think about HOW to change what you don't like, the psych will be able to help.

I'd be glad to give any more help or advice if I can. I know it's the obvious answer, but things get better.

good luck