Okay, so I wear black all the time, love heavy metal and horribly depressing music, relish in chaos around me, pick fights, have a love for the morbid, am chronically terrified, chronically depressed, despise my life, despise most people, am judgmental, HATE all superstition including god, religion and astrology, wish I was dead, I hate to lead or control people, I've been described as a freak and a hermit, I'm odd, short and pale, all I feel is rage, sadness, terror and numbness, am constantly humiliated, wish I could just die in a corner, I hate happiness, I think the human race should stop having kids or just terminate itself, I can't get along with happy or even moderately satisfied people, and had to cancel my last relationship because my gf aside from not being into bdsm was not "dark" enough for me.

I'm a male submissive... I was saddened when I came to meet BDSM people online. They were so happy! ARE THERE ANY dark, sad, hateful, miserable, judgemental, black wearing, angry but in the end decent people in the BDSM community?

If you're like me, introduce your gender, role, etc. I'll go first.


I'm a male sub, and LIFE SUCKS