Quote Originally Posted by his_j View Post
No, it isn't as far as you can hope to go. Here's how I've begun to be more of what I dream: give in. Not give up, just give in. Give in to the reality that some days the only way I get to demonstrate my submissiveness to him is by making him a drink, cooking supper, asking about his day and being there for him to turn to in the night. No play, no ritual, no BDSM stuff to it. But, always be ready, willing, encouraging, communicating and most importantly, listening. I miss the gems of hope and dominance and love that I'm so hungrily seeking when I'm just nodding my head and saying "Uh huh" while I think of other things.
Others never know their influence unless you let them know. So jeanne, I'm letting you know.

Earlier tonight, I was in the middle of my "uh-huh" while I thought of a million other things. I caught myself doing it and your words flooded in. Literally made me react physically, as if someone had shaken me hard. So I got up from where I was, went over to sit at his feet and I listened, truly listened. We shared a moment that was important for us both. It never would have happened without you and your words here. My friend, thank you.

Hugs-
tessa