i still havent been to a munch, i guess im trying to build up the courage to go explore.

For some reason it gets me very nervous thinking about meeting ppl, in my area with the same kinks as myself, i know i should be delighted i live in a big city where they have monthly meetings throught out the year, plus have more meetings and play parties in the summer, but im scared real scared that im going to like it so much that i will never want to leave *giggles* seriously im scared that im going to be opened to a whole new world or kinky ppl, some good and some bad.* I just dont want to be rushed by asses lol..or be made to feel any less of a submissive since im still at the beginning of my journey in the lifestyle welcome into the lifestyle.

Ive meet those kinds of ppl here and some in the 'nilla world. some ive talked with offline of here who like to put on that "act" i dont care either way but it gets annoying, i dont need to know how many asses you've whipped, (your not whipping mine*shrugs*) always wanting to put on a show, instead of letting their manners and demeanor speak for itself, and some ppl flock to it, while others like myself find it sad and pathethic *chuckles*

i guess thats one of the advantages of living so close to nyc, i get access to alot of things, ppl, places and weridos. giggles i can't wait to visit my first one until then im going to enjoy learning and laughing with all you here LOL..