Yours is an interesting but certainly most heartbreaking story, ashtonD. I sincerely hope that by reading about other people's experiences, and airing your own, you may find some closure.

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... Also, I can't stand people who enjoy humiliating others. Sometimes when I read of a Dom/me humiliating a sub or slave I feel like removing their face with a sledgehammer. The feelings are still that strong. (Apologies to those of you who engage in humiliation play. As long as it is play.)
I particularly noted this portion of your thread. I think perhaps it would help if you could understand the difference between humiliation and degradation within the world of BDSM. You may find this thread Humiliation verses Degradation interesting and helpful.