I agree with you, Polaris. I love rape fantasies and being forced and all of that, but like you, I can't explain it in words as to why I love them. And like you, I don't think that it is about not wanting responsibilites or not having to reciprocate. I also believe that it goes way deeper than that. But I am one of those people who don't try to analyze my sexual feelings too much. I accept them and enjoy them. So when people ask me why I enjoy rape fantasies and being forceably held down by Master my answer is, "Because I enjoy it."