What if...

[wind_dancer{W_W}]

i would definately not be into that, and i would let Him know that right off the bat but i would go through with it because i love my Lord more than anything and, altough i am pretty sure that would never happen, i would do everything He desired. But honestly i mean i could completely fake it because i am a rather good actress, but it would cause a massive separation between myself and my Lord and i know, because of who i am, i would find it VERY easy to forget my place as His slave which would take U/us a giant step backwards in O/our relationship.

i must add somethings to this... no matter how much i love my Lord i would never be fully there ever again because it would kill me inside and probably out to see him with another.. even if i do have His love. i would slowly die on the inside and become nothing but a hollow shell of a person. Because it would crush my heart way to much to see that. (i am definately crying as i write this) i love my Lord more than my life but if He wants me to be healthy and happy this would do the exact opposite.....