Quote Originally Posted by leo9 View Post
Have you tried thinking of it as something that happens for his pleasure, and that you endure to please him?
Yes. That doesn't always help with the bad feelings I associate with it, though. We had a discussion about it after an incident where he caught me off guard (I was half asleep and trying to get off the couch to head to bed) with a really hard spank and I basically burst into tears and kept backing away from him (which never really works anyway). So we talked about it and he agreed to give me warning if I agreed, well, to stay put, lol. At least until I am able to get passed this mental block. It's hard for me to push through some of the mental blocks and I haven't quite figured out how to relax, quiet my brain, and just let go.