I've tried living without anything D/s related in my relationship, as well as having aspects of D/s only in the bedroom. As a result I have a failed marriage. For me, my submission is a part of who I am. I cannot just give it up. That I do have days where I feel "less sub" than others. When I am unable to express that submission to a Dom, or try to repress it, I feel a build up of all those emotions within myself. I've reached the point where I know (and accept) I need D/s in my everyday life. I cannot forsee ever being with a partner again who was not Dominant, because I feel the most content, happy and fulfilled when I am able to relinquish that control and obey.