*long sigh*

It's really not going to be easy. I've known this already, but it's written in stone now.


I tried to break it off tonight, but I just can't do it. I've tried many times, but I just can't do it. This relationship (as any) has many different angles....This aspect isn't the only one for my trying to break it off. I could list them all, but I doubt it would do any good.

I care about him a lot, and I care about what we have. I'm just lost right now I guess...

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Quote Originally Posted by Widget View Post
Well I think you are on the way to knowing what you want you have stated some things here. The thing you need to do is to express it. There were other very good points made in that there is no right or wrong way to have any type of relationship, it is what works for both people. I wonder too you have mentioned that his motivations in the way you play together are very important to you, eg the vibrator in public for you = sexual gratification and for him = control. Why is it so importand that he has the same motives. For him the control may be as important as the sexual part is for you. I would get a charge out of knowing I would be doing something he wanted and that if that is having control over my orgasim in public whatever his motives it would still get me hot. And what if his sexual charge comes from the control . I know I get very hot about having control at times. Perhaps if you and he were able to talk more about that you could both understand each others wants better too. Good Luck
I'm not sure I explained this right, but I will talk to him about it. Perhaps this POV might help. I appreciate it. I just need to be open minded right now.

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