Just a peek at another thread, [specifically on moving from online to real time, which doesn't apply in my life, I was actually looking up some information about a completely different task for Master, but none the less...this point was encouraging (and something i see Master doing well at in R/l)]

Even the deepest submissive has tremendous difficulties--at first--with learning to obey and to submit, because learning to be a good submissive is not a matter of personality or willpower (although these things help). It's not a matter of being "submissive enough." It's entirely a matter of training and experience. The most willing and compliant submissive isn't born knowing instinctively how to serve or how to put her master's needs first. In fact, she's taught from childhood to be independent and willful. Overcoming a lifetime of cultural conditioning takes lots of time; and nothing in the easy fantasy play that people do on line or over the telephone prepares them for the difficulties of actual, real-life daily obedience. The only way a submissive learns to be a good submissive is through extensive practice, through making mistakes and learning from them, through talking over what goes wrong with a knowledgeable and patient dominant, and through extensive and informed assistance from her dominant partner.
(emphasis mine)
I'm just overwhelmed at a Dominant this patient. I'm sure no one is perfect, but knowing someone is willing to work with me like this...encourages me to be more obedient...there is so much trust needed...

I'm posting this when I'm tired and need to go to sleep...it probably won't make as much sense tomorrow as I think it does at the moment...