Just musing over trust lately. Just the diving in and my irrational imagination. (it's not the first time...I have a paranoid, dark, morbid side to me) But it's hard to give and must be handled very gently.

It's so much more than physical attraction, wild emotions or vivid imagination. The subjection mentally cannot be carelessly handled. (And you haven't been careless at all, Sir. This is simply my stream of consciousness...such as it is at 12:30 in the morning.)

If it's time to let go, just dropping it, letting it break, that's (adjective fails me here) painful. It's not just the emotions, not just the heart. Submitting at this level, you are handling someone's mind that they put willingly in your care. Putting it down has to be slow and gentle. Like a chrystal glass. The heart will heal. It is soft and can be torn, but can mend, though you can often see the mark for a long time. The mind that let it be controlled...that trust... that's shattering. It takes longer to put the pieces back together.

As time goes by, week by week, a little more trust is handed over...more control...more vulnerability. With a worthy Dom, it can be the most freeing, relieving experience. I wonder what a Dom's feelings are like, when it's put in their care?

Perhaps my musings are far from other's wealth of knowledge and understanding, but just thinking it through...to wherever it goes.