Under New Management or Meeting A New Dom

[Jadetiger]

Jade, it's your mouth, and your inability to still it that makes you so loveable.

That sounds so moth to the flameish. Caitlin

It does doesn't it. Caitlin you seem to understand what's happening better than I do.

I was surprised to have a dream last night involving being kidnapped, blindfolded, handcuffed and force your serve my capture. It turns out that Saracen's mentioning a blindfold had a subconscious effect on me. I have never had dreams or fantasies like that but I must admit I woke up horny as hell. To bad I can't remember everything. I would love to know what made my heart pound so hard and what scard me so bad that I woke up.

Jade

[Caitlin]

Caitlin you seem to understand what's happening better than I do.

Jade

Scary isn't it And I consider myself the rookie I'm right on your tail tiger. Grrrrrr

I was surprised to have a dream last night involving being kidnapped, blindfolded, handcuffed and force your serve my capture. It turns out that Saracen's mentioning a blindfold had a subconscious effect on me. I have never had dreams or fantasies like that but I must admit I woke up horny as hell. To bad I can't remember everything. I would love to know what made my heart pound so hard and what scard me so bad that I woke up.

Jade

Tisk, tisk, tisk. There goes Jades mouth again. Hmmm... I wonder if Saracen's been here yet taking notes. Lol.

But then, he does have that evil sense of humour that you find so attractive Jade. Hmmm... there goes that moth to the flame thing again.

[Jadetiger]

ROFL
You are so cute and sassy Cailtin. I love it. I don't really think I have to worry. The truth is if someone tired to kidnap me my survival instinct would kick in and they would trully have a tiger by the tail. Maybe that's why I woke up. I went from a sexual subby dream into fight for your life mode. I prefer fantasies to dreams any day at least you have some control over fantasies.

Hugs,
Jade

[Jadetiger]

Master,
I have wore your collar as command 1 and half hours this morning and I truly enjoyed it. Thank you Master

Saturday
I also perform my other task while wearing your collar. I wore the twister nipple clamps set to half strength for a half an hour this morning while working around the house. The bra made it a little easier to wear them since the weight of the chain was not pulling on my nipples. Of course I was not please having to wear a bra since I was not at work. I hope it pleases you that another item on my checklist has been changed. Forced dressing. LOL Master you are very sneaky.

Thank you Master for your attention and guidance. I will try to wear my clamps 1.5 times longer as you commanded for tomorrow 45 minutes then the next day 1 hour and 8 minutes. I will try my best Master.

Your Jade

[Jadetiger]

Master,

I did not do as well with my twister nipple clamp task today. I put them on at 6am set to half tension. At 18 minutes after was already struggling with the sting by 31 minutes after I had changed the tension from ½ to a third. By 40 minutes after I had set the tension to ¼, at 45 minutes after 6, I was removing the clamps as fast as I could. One hour and eight minutes is looking like a very long time right now. I am hoping if I change the position I clamp my nipples tomorrow that I can wear the clamps longer without it hurting so much.

Master you said I had to wear my collar for 1 ½ hours but since you never said I couldn’t wear it longer I am going leave it on until I feel better. If that is okay with you Master?


Your Jade

Getting up early on the weekend to perform tasks sucks.

[Caitlin]

Oh Jade! Do you need post nipple clamp torture after care

Can I volunteer

I hope your feeling better soon.

[Jadetiger]

Of course you can volunteer.

Let's see nipple torture after care.

Lots of gentle touching, kissing, licking and sucking. We most keep the blood circulating for proper recovery.

[Ruby]

Jade,

Our lovely overacheiver, please don't cut off the blood circulation from any body part for longer than 15 mintues. The nipples are such sneaky little things, cause it can be hard to tell if those tips are turning purple or not.

If the the clamps are so tight that they are stinging, you may be affecting the blood circulation after all. Be careful love, I know your master doesn't want you harming yourself. You know I don't.

Now about that aftercare, I'll send some long distance light kisses and nibbles your way, with lots of sucking and licking.

Ruby

[Jadetiger]

Ruby,
You are absolutely correct Master would extremely upset if I injured myself. That is why I backed off of the tension and went through the god-awful torture of nipple burn as the blood started to circulate. I will be very careful tomorrow when I perform my task. I am going to start at a third tension and clamp in a new place. I think the backing off actually hurt worst than the original stinging but the burning was so bad I had to keep doing it once I started.

As for you’re generous after care. I really appreciate it. Of course if you were really here you would have to tie me down just to administer it. I so sensitive right now that I would cum if a strong wind blew.

Hugs and Kisses,
Jade

[Saracen]

Jade,

Yesterday, I believe I told you you were crazy!!!!

Your task was to wear your tweezer nipple clamps under your bra, for a period of time, to keep you focussed on me, increasing the duration by a factor of 1.5 for day 2, and again for day 3.

I believe I used the phrase "a little discomfort" and gave examples of 10 -15 - 22.5 minutes, or 8 -12 - 18 minutes....

Your somewhat ambitious start of 30 minutes has now left you in an awkward situation, it would appear....

And you and Ruby are quite right, I shall be extremely displeased if you damage my favourite "toys" !!

So, you are hereby forbidden from completing your task.

If you are capable, you may begin it, but at the point that you have to grit your teeth to continue, I am ordering you to stop. This may be after as little as 3 minutes, if your nipples are as sensitised as I suspect.

I do not expect you to disobey me, Jade.

Saracen.

[Jadetiger]

Master,
I will not disobey you. I am sorry and ashame at causing you concern.

Your humbled Jade

[her_Joe]

Saracen, Jade --

I want you both to know how much I appreciate what you both -- you especially, Jade, because of your constancy and openness -- are doing here.

By sharing your efforts, respect, and love for one another so openly, it's a big help to those of us who are new to D/s to listen in on your interaction.

So ... thanks.

I'm curious, Jade, what were you thinking to push yourself so hard. When I read what you planned to do with the clamps a couple of days ago, I wondered if you were Wonder Woman, or were deliberately pushing yourself too hard for some reason I didn't pick up.


her_Joe

[Jadetiger]

Her_joe,
I really don’t know what to say. So I will say thank you, it seems the safest thing to do at the moment. I am not having a good day and my openness does not feel like a good thing to me at present.

I to am new to D/s as well. I joined the forum in January and read everything I could. I did find the BDSM library stories were mostly not to my taste. Some of them even made me feel sick so I don’t read them any more. By March I had made many friends and was exploring both my submissive and dominant sides. I spent much more time on my Domme side but my first master helped me open up enough so that exploring my submissive side didn’t seem alien to me or wrong. He was also the one who taught me that by sharing my experiences with others I would see I was not alone and others would understand my needs. My needs soon turned to wanting to explore pain which was not something that my first master enjoyed or maybe he realized I would be to hard to train in this area. I am not sure at this point. Saracen and I are just starting our relationship as Dom/sub. And as you can tell what I think will please and make Saracen proud of me is having the exact opposite effect.

I was thinking about completing my task as my Master had requested. If I had been Wonder Woman I would not have had to back off on the tension. The question is why was it so important to me. Saracen and I only have one day a week where we can be with each other for him to watch and train me. It was going to be a present to Saracen since we would not be together for a couple of weeks. I actually spent much of yesterday trying to figure out how I could wear the clamps for over an hour successfully without so much pain and not causing any damage to my nipples. As you can see my Master was not happy that I did not remove my clamps when the pain became intense. The fact is by not removing them I upset him and ruin my present altogether. Saracen and I chatted on MSN last night and I will not be finishing this task. Not because of the pain but because I can’t do it knowing I have displeased him already in performing the task.

I am glad if our sharing helps others. I know when others share with me it is a great gift. Learning about one’s needs and desires is sometimes extremely hard and very emotional. The fact that there are others out there doing the same thing gives me strength to continue learning about myself.

Saracen has made it perfectly clear that any pain training will be done under his direct supervision. The purpose of any other tasks assigned when he is not around are for preparation and focus only.

Jade

[her_Joe]

Thank you, Jade. Your explanation is a great help.

Your mistakes remind me of some made by my sub, His_pita, and me also. I think when something is new, and we want to succeed, we tend to try a bit too hard. pita has been very good lately, but our relationship doesn't allow me to push her harder either, and leaving it to her ... well, we both learn patience and trust.

Now I'll get out of your thread, but know that many of us are lurking and wish you well .... and continued success.

her_Joe

[Jadetiger]

Her_joe,
Please do not go back to lurking. The thread is not mine but belongs to everyone on the forum. By sharing your thoughts with me to have given me hope that I can learn to truly please Saracen. I have spent a lot of time trying to figure out why everything I do seems to back fire when all I really want to do is serve and please him. You have helped to relieve some of the doubts I am having about being able to fulfill his needs and I desperately needed some hope right now.

Jade

Thank you

[Jadetiger]

Ruby I posted more in the other forum but I just wanted to thank you for the life lesson you showed me when you were with Nathanile. I adore you.

I have to thank Ruby for allowing me to see how she interacts with her Nathaniel. They have so much fun together that it made me realize I was holding back a part of myself from Saracen. I take everything so seriously and worry so much that I was not enjoying Saracen’s company as much as I could have. We even had a serious conversation about punishment. I told him I knew one day he would probably have too. He started teasing me that he really didn’t need a reason to punish me if that was what he felt like doing at the time. I got serious on him again. I told him I would rather take pain knowing it was for his pleasure rather than thinking it was because I displeased him. Saracen didn’t undertand why I worried about it. He has never punished me. I tried to explain that disappointing him hurt worst than the zipper and that I would rather do the zipper than have him say he is disappointed in me. Then I teased him and said you noticed I didn’t mention the nasty alligator clips. Saracen mentioned something about my mouth being an inspiration for ideas. I couldn’t help but laughing. I had done it again and he was laughing too. So I told Saracen if he felt the dreaded “D” word coming to let me know and I would say zipper. In the back of my mind I must have known it was possible that he could have the need to hurt me emotionally. I have seen other Doms do it. I was just too afraid to ask him if he had that need as well. Now I know Saracen would never hurt me like that on purpose. We had a great time teasing one another once I realized that Saracen would not use my emotions against me. My trust in him has grown. Now Saracen can tease and make me squirm and I can enjoy his wonderful but evil sense of humor.

Thank you Master for a wonderful night. Please remember patience is a virture which I am sadly lacking in. Please don't keep me on CD for to long. I may end up being bad.

Saracen’s Jade

[Ruby]

Jade,

And I adore you. You are an amazing woman, taking everything challenge that comes your way at full force.

I'm going to put the rest of this Nathaniel's and my thread
http://www.bdsmlibrary.com/forums/showthread.php?t=3419

Thank you for setting such a beautiful example.

Ruby

[alura]

What progress you have made! I'm so proud of you!