I am beginning to understand the whole idea of CR a little better, and sorry to everyone, I should stay away from things that I have little understanding about.

But all in all it is good for the learning curve.

I still fail to fully comprehend the whole concept because,
A) I don't have a Dom, Master, or other
B) I am selfish when it comes to orgasms, when I am continually left frustrated I need to quell that frustration.
C) I tend to separate my submissiveness and BDSM activities as separate

I am submissive (a service submissive), yet whiny, stubborn, and headstrong. Not great qualities for a sub, but probably a challenge for a Dom.

I experiment in BDSM with exhibition, and humiliation, through role play.
I can incroporate my submissive side into any role play, but that ends when the role play ends. Any CR done is treated in an entirely different manner, it also ends when the role play ends.

I would think that my relunctance to fully appreciate CR, is due to the fact that I think it requires a committed and close relationship between two (or more) people, who want to fully explore the advantages of it.

So sorry if I exasperate anyone, I try and stay quiet, but most times I don't.

I understand why the Dominant chooses to do this, but I would be curious though as to how Mishka feels about it, or any other submissives that do go through the CR process.