And watching Mishka learn is just hot.
You have no idea tessa, none at all. You should try it from where I sit.
i'd love to be where You sit, so You could see it live and in person...and i could see Your reaction.


Originally Posted by tessa
I really have been giving this cum restriction thing a think over (in support of Mishka-lishous and because it just fascinates me). The idea that it's used to heighten an awareness in sensuality does allow me to perceive it in an entirely new way.

I am a highly sensual being. I exist within my sensuality, basically. This aspect of myself is a pervasive force in my thoughts actions and daily goings-on. Sometimes to distraction. Ok, lots of times to distraction. ~looks over at Red~ Oh, be quiet. Most times, then. Anyway, the thought that I could be taken even further into that part of myself...wow.

Wow.
A short background to it: Rhabbi was having me masturbate as often as i could, thinking of him, and have the release i need. Well, real life happens, it went quite a long time for the "real thing", and I was tired. I didn't like it, I couldn't cum, if I thought of Rhabbi I would cry because he wasn't there. I had no interest in masturbating what so ever.

So just when I thought He would relieve me of my trip in the desert, it turned out to be a mirage. He thought cum restriction would be a better help to my lack of sensuality. I thought it was punishment, instead I'm glad He did it.

The first orgasm after this short restriction was the best orgasm I've ever had in my life. This is going to sound sappy and a poor stab at poetic, but there was a complete difference from the orgasms I've had before...ever. Those are red, hot, powerful energy behind them, animalistic, primal and the noises to go with it. This one was unique. It was blue, cold, from the top of my head down to my vagina, gentle, soft. I felt more amazingly feminine, completely lost in slavery, my voice caught in a whimper, or more like a kitten's soft mew at the end release.

My orgasms are his. They are better with him, for him.