Quote Originally Posted by new_explorer View Post
I hope for me you are all right in that in the end it is all worth it.
I am on restriction for the first time, and yesterday, day 10, I found myself going out of my mind, it had been a bad day at work and I just wanted to come home and make it a good day. Not only have I been on restriction but the communication between us has been limited (apparently I was a bit too egar, so I am learning patience, and it's taking sooo long) As we are both new to this, I was beginning to question why he was doing this to me so I e-mailed him telling him how badly I was struggling. Although I thought this would annoy him, me already being impatient and all, it was something I needed him to know. I was pleasantly surprised later when he contacted me, and let me talk about it, that was all I needed to feel better.
Although I am happy that we were able to talk about it, and he helped me understand why, I do wish I had found this thread sooner, if I had I might not have gotten in the state I was yesterday.
That is actually quite normal during training. I imposed CR on Mishka to help her deal with another problem she was having, and at first she felt like she was being punished. Your Dom sounds like a smart man to be willing to listen to your gripes when you need him to, congradulations.