silver, hun - that is a thought for sure but I think you are on the right track with continuing to learn all you can. Read, absorb, find out what makes you really tingle when you read this or that and how you could see that happening for you, if you can see that happening for you.
Asking questions openly helps go a long way in hearing other's views and perspectives which you can then take into yourself to see if that is something you like or not. It's part of the learning process.
Knowing what you might want will help guide you firstly and staying open to other ideas will help you continue to grow and learn more.
Where your boyfriend is concerned, all you can do is state openly, bluntly and honestly how you feel - don't 'skirt' around maybe's and what if's. Let him know outright it is something you Need to explore and would like him to explore with you. He will let you know if that is not for him or if he thinks it would be interesting to learn together or not![]()