"Yeah, I'm late. What the fuck are you going to do about it? That's right, nothing. Go get my fucking dinner ready."

Yes I can see how that can be hot. But I'm afraid of taking it that far. Sometimes I feel like getting treated a little more harshly and, at other times, I feel like it's a downright insult to even be addressed in such ways. I dunno. I guess it's the feminist inside me. As much as I love the idea of being a sub, I hate the idea of becoming a secondary citizen (one time in the course of history for a black person...in America anyways...is enough thank you). It's so hard to keep my public life and personal life separate. On the one hand, I am treated like a cute little coy toy for a big powerful white man who ravages me constantly (with or without my consent) in attempt to help me discover my sexuality (MLKJ would have my head for that). On the other, I'm a hard ass bitch who hates being wrong or told what to do and the last thing she'd do is submit to anyone. Don't play chicken with me in a hallway because we will definitely knock each other over.

Sort of a contradiction and it's so hard to stay in one mind set. I'd get pissed if my Dom called me 'his bitch' but then I'd realize "WHAT? Oh yeah, I'm home and in the bedroom with my Dom. Not in the street." But by that time, the rage has washed over me and I've got to start the 'feel good' process all over again. Matter of fact, I think there is a thread on this. Being a bitch feminist (bitch and feminist are not Synonymous but I am a bitch of a feminist) who has trouble adjusting at times because they are so use to behaving a certain way in public. Does anyone have that link?