Quote Originally Posted by jezabel {ukMC} View Post
Ive never liked pain before, I cant even pluck my own eyebrows but now as I become more enveloped into the lifestyle, the idea of pain excites me, Master knows my limits and would never push them without permission but even then I want more.

Can someone turn from being "normal" (whatever normal is) into a masochist, wanting and needing the pain?

This might sound a bit daft, but Im scared at the difference in me. Ive spoken to my Master about it and He says Hes just released the 'real me'. Is He right, was I always like this and just didnt realise?

thanks jez xxx
Yes, I think that a person can go from non-masochistic to masochistic. I think this is generally spurred into happenning by some sort of life changing event, in many cases. Personally, I've been mosochistic since I was 6 or 7 yrs old, so I can't quite identify with your fear of change within yourself. If it were me, I would probably try to identify at exactly what point I changed and what might have led to that change- just because I would feel a compulsive need to know. I'm not actually sure about the "real you"... I'm not sure there is a "real" anybody because everyone grows and changes throughout their lives. What can be very real now, may not be in a few years and vice versa. I know that in the 13 years with my Master (more or less, my whole adult life), I have changed repeatedly as have the things that I enjoy in bdsm. In my case, I do know that this (as in, the overall D/s and s&m) was ALWAYS what I wanted in life... even as a kid.