as far as the subject goes, i feel like i am still exploring it. But i am finding now that i might be a switch. i feel submissive in certain instances and Dominate in others.

But it also through my experience in the last couple weeks, that i am learning as a sub ( rather a bad one at that) i need more discipline i think. But i also feel that though my lack of discipline that it makes me wonder if i am dominate? or is it that i am just a bad sub that can't control myself? i'm noty sure.

i know this is all new to me, and i want to learn and be trained as a good sub. but how can i do that when i'm not really financially ready to support this lifestyle? So far i have an internet relationship with my DOM which lives in Arizona and me in the San Fransisco Bay Area.