hey,
im feeling for you here,
just to get out in the open, i was raped when i was 13 (please no o im so sorrys, it just makes me dwell) and i get its so scary to tell someone, you think they are going to run, to freak out, to think the past will ruin things, in a way i guess i would be scared because i would think i would have flashbacks or nightmare and ruin it, not him ruining it.

but i have learnt a lot the past year,
it is better to tell,
if he cant handle it, he cant handle it but if he really is a good thing for you he will at least try to understand. the worst thing you can do is not mention it again. i have learnt the harway, but face the fear, and if things dont work out, just remember people react differently to different things, if he doesnt react well then thats his problem, he might end up losing you.

all i can say is keep things open, its the best way to continue staying comfortable and these things take work.

i hope you sort this out i really do
best wishes
emma