Snuff

[leo9]

I had to think this one out carefully, because two previous partners have been excited by edgy games where - either by breath control or by artery pressure - I could hold them in a state where their lives were literally in my hands, and where they were close enough to passing out to feel that they might die right there. And it was a big thrill because, if this is about power exchange, then the power of life and death is universally recognised as the ultimate.

But that didn't quite fit, and I realised that it wasn't what this is about because none of us seriously imagined that I would kill them; the thrill was just that I could, that I had that power and wasn't afraid to use it. If the fantasy had been that I was going to kill them, it would have been a whole different game.

[Matin]

i personally can't find anything erotic about snuff, either erotica or pictures or porn. i include torture.

i think that if i fantasize about it i would be putting her face in the fantasy...

i cannot bear her face in any real serious pain. i guess i'm not a sadist.

that's not to say i disapprove of anyone having any kind of fantasy, hey i'm not livin in any glass house.

in practise.. i disapprove. the idea that people might be killed or genuinely mutilated for the pleasure of others is as abhorrent to me as, say, a tijuana donkey show. or the torture of women in clubs in bangkok.

like seth rogen says in the 40 yr old virgin; "you're all exited because it's, like, a chick having sex with a donkey!" pause.. "then you get there, and its a chick. having sex with a donkey." and that bleak look on his face when he tells it is how i'd look.

*shrug* i'm so full of two centses tonight...

[efwb2]

Lucy: Yes the movies where real, filmed in the Middle East some where. They are really disturbing and I never want to see any thing like that again. I just don’t have the stomach for it and it does not turn me on in any way.

Human Life is precious; I teach kids for a living in the outdoors and only have three rules, Respect you’re self, Respect everyone else and Respect the Environment.

Those rules are my rules for life. I have done security where I have had knifes pulled on me and I’ve had to leave people bloody. But that was self defence and I think there is a huge difference in defending ones self and hurting someone. I could not imagine hurting one hair on my girl’s heads in a way. I would fight to protect them first.
I live by my three rules and I have the utmost respect for my girls. That’s stops me from taking that step into the big taboo of are world.

El x

[Arria]

But that didn't quite fit, and I realised that it wasn't what this is about because none of us seriously imagined that I would kill them; the thrill was just that I could, that I had that power and wasn't afraid to use it.

That describes the thrill I feel during breathplay very well.
If I didn´t trust my play partner to stop before it got really dangerous, I would not consider breathplay with him...

As I said elsewhere, I don´t know how far I would go if I had no family; but with things being as they are, realizing a snuff fantasy is just out of the question.