I am lucky enough not to have been abused as a child, but have always had submissive triggers from as far back as I can remember so I think your born wired that way. To add wieght to my view I was badly phisically abused by a boyfriend in my late teens which really messed me up for many years. However my pleasure from being dominated and humiliated sexually has remained the same before during and after - so my advise would be not to link the two events, your sexuality is YOUR own and should not be tainted by people whos unexceptable issues are THEIR own