I have read this post extensivly and *eyes veronica* I have determined that there are thos of us who just dont get it!! Who are you to understand or claim I do not know what happiness is.. let me say this ...I do know what it is because i know sorrow and this tells me and teaches me that Im in a happy place 90% of the time..but i digress!
I too was abused in so many ways it is hard to grasp how one who has been treated so can judge another..we are all children of some form or another..we can phsycoanalize it till the cows come home and yet we have chosen this venue to make us happy.. I KNOW that ive come along way baby from the little girl i was to the woman of strength i am today and Ill say *eyes veronika* this I have come out of a dark and desolate hole reaching for the light and have entered the light in bdsm.. it has shown me that I am 1. not alone...2 that my kink is not a bad or ugly thing..and 3 that it has nothing to do with my abuse ..quite the contrary..it shown me that my kink is my life raft and my happyness!! and to Brightfyrefly.. well I think Youre name says it all, you too have come out of this darkness markedly different and know who you are..in what youre asking: question nothing, feel guilt for no thing, and honor you heart and be just who you are a happy Brightfyrefly!!