i was also abused sexually as a child and suffered from trauma issues much of my life. i have spent countless hours trying to figure out if this is why i am so submissive. i am not sure because i am 44 years old and have only had vanilla relationships till Him. i was often re-abused and finally went for dv counseling which taught me so much. He is the first man i chose to be with and the first man i have been safe with. its odd to me that W/we can engage in some of the things W/we do together and its good for me. W/we are 24/7 and engaged as well. i finally sleep at night with Him next to me after many years of not sleeping at all. He is the first who can get in and out of bed and i don't wake up. i bring all this up because i don't know if i was born like this or became like this or a combo. The abuse statistics are overwhelmingly high and many are not like this. i enjoy the way i live now and would hate to say that it is because i was abused like any other "symptom" i have from it.