It occurred to me - would you like to spend the waiting time discussing the issue further? Why you think of him as a monster because of his 4 subs in the past?
I find myself that it helps to think with other people - it clears the mind. Often even more so with things that seem self-evident from the start.
I don't know, ive known him as someone else, and to find a completely different side of him is just scary and way to different to cope with at the time being.