In reading this thread I find myself glad that their are others here that may understand. Please do not take offence, I'm not glad that anyone ever goes through any type of abuse, but I am glad that I am not alone.

I'm new to the BDSM scene but I have always enjoyed stories that had elements of BDSM in them. At first I thought it was because of what happened to me, but later I realised that I was looking for those elements before I remembered what had happened. I have to agree with those that say we made easier targets because we are wired a certain way.

Also, to sexyredhead, I do not know what you will choose to do, and I am sorry that those memories came that way. What I will sugest is that while you do want to face and work through the memories; if you decide to continue with your discovery in BDSM at this time as well I think you and your Master should consider diffrent levels of safewords and signals if you start getting uncomfortable or if flashbacks are starting to surface. I know some flashbacks give no warning, while some, at least of mine, do and maybe that will help. I hope I do not offened anyone here by saying this.

Take care,
Pandora