I too, have been sexual molested, verbal abused, and physically. I have found my way past it, past the traumas of my past. In certain ways, it's helped make me stronger, harder, less forgiving. When I sought consoling it only hurt me more. They wanted to place blame on someone, not me of course. I have in the past known Masters who would use this against me, and of course left them for their indiscretions. If a Master can't handle it then I move on. My life has been loaded with pain, ending one trauma with another. I have had to find my own way out of the black hole it has left in me. Know this, in no way has it been the fault of you, the one who received the abuse. Once you accept, it's the hole; "it's not me, not my fault." You will be able to spread your wings and fly so to speak. Never live in the past, move forward and don't look back.