So, from reading other posts, I've seen that most people on here are agnostic or atheist, but I thought I might try to get an answer about this anyways. I am a Christian and have been all my life. Now, don't get some image of some fanatic cramming the bible down your throat... I have always believed that my faith is something I should LIVE out, and if you choose not to agree with me, that is your own choice. That said... I am having trouble with balancing the lifestyle and my beliefs. I have only really been a part of this for a couple of months, and my faith is still the same. I just feel really... ashamed, I guess, when I go to church or read my bible, knowing what I have just done the night before...because of the submissive woman thing in the bible. I was wondering if anyone else had experience dealing with this?

Also... I am not *legally* married, and while I realize the bible condemns sex outside of marriage, marriage is described as a commitment before God that is consumated. My relationship does exactly that. My parents say it is a stretch but I was informed by pastors that we do biblically qualify as married, so please do not get into that.