I have a bit of a dilemma... which maybe some of you lovely people have some thoughts on or can relate to...

I am still pretty now to actually living out my submissive side (although I have had fantasies since I was a child) but now that I do I have come across one thing that I struggle with a lot and I don't know how to handle this.

I am a very communicative person - I am used to telling my mother and my best friend everything- and they do the same. We share things, especially things that make us happy or changes or exciting relationships etc.

But this I can't tell them.

When I was 13, I was on the net, chatting with so called Doms, cybering, roleplaying and my mother found a chatlog of mine. It was a huge deal - she is not a prude but she was extremely worried because she thinks what we do is really wrong. She believes in the empowerment of women and has clear opinions of how sex should be for women and how they should be treated. My submissiveness goes against everything she believes in - at least I could never convince her that in truth and at the core of things it doesn't.

With my best friend its a bit different - she might actually understand to a certain level - I don't know. If I phrase it right and in the right moment.

But My Master doesn't want me to. He hates it when people talk about their sex-life and the intimacies of their relationship and sees it as a small betrayal. He wants to keep it as something special just between us and I understand and respect that too - and not as a slave to her Master but from human to human, lover to lover, friend to friend.

But now whenever my best friend or my mum ask me how things are with my Master because they do know that I am in love with him, I feel like I betray them because I lie. Mostly I withhold the truth but there are instances of small lies as well. Its especially bad with my friend because in my heart I know that there might be a way that I could tell her but don't.
Of course telling her would betray my Master which I can't and wouldn't...

How do you guys deal with this - with very close friends and family who aren't in the lifestyle? And who do you talk to about it?