Is your marriage a happy one?
Happy no, long yes, 25 years.

Why do you do it? The kids started college and my homeschool career was done. I had an angry sullen husband who refused my advances, and told me I rejected him in the same sentence. I felt alone and ugly. I wrote to be alive. I wanted to practice my sex writing and then wanted to post it. Here fit, the Academy called, I joined and met a man who swept me off my feet.

Would you leave your spouse for your D/s partner? I would have said no a year ago. Now I’m not so sure. I don’t want to leave. I want to be happily married but I don’t know what to do. More and more I fantasize about selling books so I have money. I have none. Have not worked outside the home since my son was 3. Gave my life to my family, was a stay at home mom. I know that if hubby would just try I would be able to go back to that life, but I see no interest.

Would you meet them in r/l? No, unless I get a divorce I will not be meeting. That is why my first Master left me.

Is is cheating? Yes, it’s cold and cruel but I know I’m hiding, I’m emotionally involved with another man. Do I feel evil, No. Every time I go to him and he refuses me, “I’ve got a headache,” (seriously) I feel a tension in my that only pain can relieve or the arms of a cyber lover.

When does it become cheating? When you know inside that it’s cheating. I knew it from the first task I performed. I remember feeling a gratitude in me that filled me and made me smile.

Ok I didn’t mean for this to be a sob story. I laugh more now than I ever have. Every giggle I type represents two that I actually had explode from my body. This place gives me a joy that is just not in my real life. I know I’m doing wrong but sometime you just have to go with what makes your life bearable. Here my opinion counts and no one tells me to be quiet. I make people laugh, smile and get horny. What more could a girl ask for. I’ve even learned to Dom a bit. Giggle.

So I guess what I want to say is I just want to have fun, and I’m so thankful that I’m not judged here. The only time I get angry here is when I feel someone is being held to a silly rule of society. I want to be free here. I think that is why most of us are here.