Flaming thanks for getting the Labyrinth quote.

Since I happen to be more honest with you (as in the people of this board) than I am with those in my Vanilla life in general. Since it may help with this thread in general. Here it is.

My normal vanilla friends can simply understand that I'm into something "else". Something that they aren't into or don't know about or maybe don't want to know about and it's accepted that I'm the weird one. I don't mind that one bit.

I've recently moved. I moved in with an ex (to get me on my feet in my new place). Now this ex I've known for well over a decade and almost at this point half my entire life. Sure we had sex, that's almost like my form of hugging someone. Well now I don't want to have sex and I fear he's taking it personally.

I refuse (because I'm a bit of a bitch at times) to not go to websites like this. Though i do try to limit the times as I am using his computer and such... So from time to time of course he see's what I'm doing, reads over my shoulder casually, etc. I do not know how to properly justify going to bdsm sites and not having sex to him, because to him it looks like I'm searching for porn.