Thanks for the input.

I didn't mean to make it sound like I would leave DH for someone else. I often just think about how you get one chance to live the best life possible, and in a few areas, I have screwed up big time. It makes me sad. I do blame myself for a lot of the problems in my marriage. I used to be a bit of a doormat, and honestly didn't think that my needs were important. It's not DH's fault that I have outgrown that over time. In the end, I can totally see myself living as a hermit somewhere with a bunch of good books, and like 180 cats. lol.

Anyway, the reality is I effed up, and will have to live with this situation for a long time. I know that MOST people aren't living the life they want, and understand that doesn't make me unique. Trust me, I get up everyday and put on my big girl pants and deal with the life I DO have in the best way I can.

(and not that y'all cared to know this little tidbit, but hormones are wreaking havoc on me lately, so once a month I go through all sorts of crazy phases. I will NOT be one of those women mourning when menopause hits.)

The End.