happy and loved and sexually fulfilled perhaps?
I really hope that hubby of yours understands what you want and need and that he perhaps can take charge at times so that you get what you need atleast occationally.
It is not like it is an easy thing to ask of somebody and I am sure it took alot of courage from your part. I just hope he understands just how hard it was and that he appreciates your effort enough to give it to you sometimes (or hopefully often )
the very best of luck to you jeanne