A plea for guidance

[jeanne]

happy and loved and sexually fulfilled perhaps?
I really hope that hubby of yours understands what you want and need and that he perhaps can take charge at times so that you get what you need atleast occationally.
It is not like it is an easy thing to ask of somebody and I am sure it took alot of courage from your part. I just hope he understands just how hard it was and that he appreciates your effort enough to give it to you sometimes (or hopefully often )
the very best of luck to you jeanne

Logic!: Don't worry about me - my "needs" are being met. Not quite the way I hoped for, but still, all is well.

Understands what I want and need? That is the problem. He doesn't understand. I don't think he ever really saw the appeal and he definitely didn't get the mental part of it. He may turn into a pretty good top still, but a Dom? I don't think it's going to happen. Unfortunately, I've begun to realize that I'm NOT a bottom. I am submissive. There is a world of difference between the two for me.

I'm an extremist. I'd rather have all or none. Crumbs, sprinkled about to keep me quiet, will not suffice. And getting crumbs from him has become insulting and hurtful. That's my perception, not his intention.

Walking away from crumbs - I want the whole damn cake,
jeanne

[Logic1]

Understands what I want and need? That is the problem. He doesn't understand. I don't think he ever really saw the appeal and he definitely didn't get the mental part of it. He may turn into a pretty good top still, but a Dom? I don't think it's going to happen.

that is what I meant with your needs met. Not just sexually.
I really do hope all goes well for you, from my heart.

*Dom hugs*